Foryou.

I am sorry for everything. I am sorry I was selfish and only thought about myself when I should have been thinking about us. I am sorry that I didn't realize how much I hurt you every time I made a big deal about the small stuff. My friend is going through the exact same thing but she is in your position and hearing her tell me how hurt she is and how she feels she is being pushed away because her boyfriend makes a big deal about every small thing opened up my eyes and made me realize that is exactly what I did to you. I pushed you away till you no longer wanted me. I can't change anything now but I feel that even though its too late I should still apologize for my mistakes. I wish I knew how you really felt when I treated you badly or when I said hurtful things because when I heard her side it killed me even now because  I hurt someone I cared about so much by my actions and I'm weak so I still feel bad. I was so blind to only think about what I wanted and I guess even if  I knew what you wanted I ignored it and thought you'd stick around and I took you for granted and I wish I hadn't. I guess we just have to learn from it. I wanted to text you but I am too scared you wouldn't answer back so I wrote it here and whether you read it or not it doesn't matter because I just wanted to get this out.